it wasn't in the lesson plan just like breaking hearts isn't what we intended at all but the breaks happen anyway and lessons are learned and reduced to the size of paragraphs recorded and tucked away so that when we look back at it all we can ask ourselves why do i say things like that? and carry on the hollywood hope that maybe we'll come in contact with someone out there who can put a stop to this unending soap cycle or at least keep you company along the way to anywhere but here